Instead, I held you.


When Ryan first came in to our world, I did a whole lot of mommy blog reading! KellyMom was one of my favorites…still is…and when they retweeted this lovely post, I just had to share…

There have been so many times that I have felt this exact same way…overworked, too tired, stressed and trying to juggle too many things at once. But when Ryan decides she wants to cuddle or fall asleep on me…my whole world comes to a stop! It is my favorite thing in the whole wide world and these baby cuddles seem to be leaving me far too quickly.

From the minute she wakes up, she is very busy! Too busy to lounge on me like she used to…but when she does…I soak every second up like a sponge, knowing that I will never get these little moments back.




______ Instead, I held you. By Regan Long. _________

Today my patience has run thin and all I could think about was having a few minutes to myself, but as you fell fast asleep on my chest, it was an easy choice despite a list of things needing to be done.

Because instead … I held you.

I was going to get the dishwasher unloaded and the overflowing pile in sink washed.
But instead I held you.

I was going to get the clothes folded that have been sitting in the dryer, refluffed one too many times. And I was going to rewash the laundry that sat wet over night.
But instead I held you.

I was going to grab my two minute shower and if I was lucky, I was going to blow-dry my hair and maybe throw on a little makeup.
But instead I held you.

I was going to answer some work emails and respond to a few missed calls that have needed returned over the past 72 hours.
But instead I held you.

I was going to vacuum up the crunched mini wheats that you accidentally spread through the living room and stairwell, and likewise clean up some of the toys that are strewn in every room but the playroom.
But instead I held you.

I was going to get dinner in the crock pot and go through the pile of mail that has been sitting on the countertop since Monday.
But instead I held you.

I was going to carry you upstairs and lay you down as I was pretty certain you wouldn’t awake if I did. Maybe you would have been more comfortable in your bed?
But instead I held you.

You see, your little legs are already bunched up on the chair as it seems like it was just yesterday that your tiny toes were still resting upon my stomach.

Your tiny breaths and sweet hands fell so perfectly around me, yet soon you will prefer to stretch out in your own toddler bed.

It turns out that my plans for this time weren’t going to accomplish what I have right here in my arms.

I found my calm and the peace and the satisfaction right here, right now, because of one simple choice…

Instead, I held you.

-Regan Long

You can follow Regan Long here @ReganLong

-You can read the Full Article from Huffington Post HERE